march 1, 2009

Sundays are always a chaotic day for me, most of the time i have to wake up earlier than 2pm which is more difficult than it sounds, then i have to proceed to showering and heading to church by 11. After church i do whatever i want but then i have to play taxi to my brother (s). Today was no different. Today was the first day i got to sit down, talk, meet, and eat lunch with Jake's parents, which i enjoyed. Plaza azteca, chicken cheese quesadilla, sweet tea, and Jake..what more could i ask for. [not too much]

I stayed with a friend Saturday night and it's funny, she's about 4 or 5 years younger than me and i hear the way she talks and i understand her thought process immediately. I find it so hard to believe that i once thought that same way, I'm no old women but i do know more than she does about life, boys, school, future, and whatever else takes time and maturity to grasp. The way i view things now compared to when i was a freshman or even sophomore in high school is almost the complete opposite as to the way organize my thoughts now. for example: When a 15 year old boy says something like "we don't have to hang out today." My 15 year old girl friend hears "i understand that you don't have much time for me today," but what i hear is "i don't want to hang out today." I wish i could just tell her exactly what every boy she talks to is thinking so she doesn't get hurt, but at the same time i think that's a good thing for someone to learn. People don't always say what they mean in attempts to avoiding conflict or hurt feelings but sometimes people need to hear what they don't want to hear. The longer something is drawn out the more difficult it is to tell the truth.

anyways, on a funnier note, weird dream from last night. It was a dark night, maybe one or two street lights, I'm walking down the side walk and i suddenly feel a mans presence behind me. I turn quickly and ask him to "go away," he then continues to ask me "girllll, you wanna get together!?" "of course not!" i reply. he doesn't get the hint...he catches up to me but is now in the middle of the road parallel to me. i ask him if he wants to race and he is excited at the thought of competition. We both take off, as he continues to run, i stop and turn around! He was gone forever! the end :)


until tomorrow!