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"in the recipe of life, the most important ingredient is friends"

everything life is

"Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it."
— Mother Teresa



what would life be if you didn't benefit from it, admire it, realize the dream, meet the challenges, complete the duties, play the games, fulfill promises, overcome sorrows, sing songs, accept struggles, confront tragedies, adventure, make your own luck, and fight for what is yours to keep.

jake, bealer, mark and i went for a little bit of an adventure this evening, here are some photos!

letter to mother nature

Dear Mother Nature,
First off I want to thank you for bringing me my monthly gift, ......not. I don't enjoy this time at all, and I am cranky and in pain. Second, I want to point out that I'm am fully aware of the fact that it is difficult for us, as women, to make up our minds but this is ridiculous. You need to choose, warm, cold, cool, hot, rain, snow, sunshine! Please! It's very confusing, one day I walk outside and I'm wearing shorts, and the next day it is snowing. I just don't understand how you could be so indecisive. Honestly, I'm a pretty indecisive person myself, but if you need help choosing I'll be more than happy to help. *cough*sunshine*cough* just a suggestion... I know a lot of people who would be thrilled if you would just pick one season to throw at us at a time, trust me. In saying those things I want to let you know that I have been sick more than once in the past month or so, and I'm not blaming you, but um, i mean...you sure cant blame my immune system with the weather acting the way it has been acting, now can we? I'm just saying...

Anyways, Mother N, I hope you take all that I said into consideration.

Until Later,
-Mary-Elizabeth!

rainy days

i realized rainy days bring me down, not only that but i need to figure out a normal sleep schedule because without sleep i am a grouch. I did notice one thing about me though, no matter what kind of mood i may be in, children cheer me up. they are so funny and cute. I went to a 5 year olds ballerinas birthday party today and i was so thrilled to be part of it. Poor jake, he had to sit around with a bunch of little girls in too toos haha! I will post photos very soon, they are precious.

on another note, i have had a lot on my mind but i dont think im ready to share yet. Maybe i will share soon. hopefully, soon.

My body is aching and im not exactly sure why. my legs, toes, shoulders, arms, fingers, and back.And on top of my body aching, im breaking out on my forehead! I NEVER get pimples, ughhh. It is not good!

My mom was so nice, today she bought me two side tables and a window curtain thing. So my room is coming together nicely. For those who dont know, my room was just sort of created out of a random part of the house. And i insisted it was to be painted purple with black and white everything. So it's a work in progress but i love it!

alright, work at 7:00am!

regret

oh, how i regret staying up till 3:30am when i had to work at 6:30am. I am dumb!

everyday

Lately i have been examining my life and looking back at the things i had to go through to get where i am right now and it's crazy. Life definitely works itself out in amazing ways. I find it funny that god knows me so well. I'm almost positive i was born to be a mother and raise a family younger than others. The things that i have gone through in my life have definitely given me the tools i need, to do what i was born to do. For example, i have been in so many relationships with people so i could see what i like and what i don't like in a mate, also, i have worked in multiple day cares and have been raised taking care of friends children. I may go through things that you have never experienced because you were meant for a completely different purpose than i was. I didn't graduate high school, i didn't continue in college, i don't have a particular hobby that i am good at, and most of those things would help other people live out their future but not mine. It's just strange, i love having my late night talks with Catherine. She helps clear my mind so well. Our friendship is so unique, and special to me. Anyways, i have to work at 5 so i think I'm going to start getting ready. I will most likely post later on this weekend. :) life is beautiful, no matter how it comes at you.

beautiful

i am so glad its beautiful outside again, although I'm not taking advantage of it. I work tonight from 9:30pm-3:00am so i am just laying in my bed watching music videos with the window open. My mom is out of town and more often than not when she's gone i am upset. I just like having her around me, even though sometimes we fight and disagree. I need to learn how to handle her being gone because she has to leave a lot so she can work and make money.

Anyways, i was talking to Catherine the other night and something she said to me really made me feel a little better. I think that a lot of people are better than me, or I'm better than certain people. But she told me that no one is better than anyone else because even though i make mistakes that are evident to others the people who seem perfect in my eyes may have thoughts that are worse than my actions and in gods eyes that is the same thing. None of us deserve anything we have and i should remind myself of that every day. I am blessed to have the things i have and i will not take advantage of the fact that god died for my sins and downfalls. God has recently showed his love to me more than i have ever noticed and it makes me extremely happy! And i find it strange that he showed up when he did because i had hit ROCK BOTTOM and definitely embarrassed him and i was the last person he should have helped out. But none-the-less never left my side.

I had a dream a long time ago, the most realistic dream ever. I was walking down the beach holding gods hand, he was a LOT taller than me and i was a child. I was walking on the side closest to the water and i would run and play in the water and run ahead in the sand but would always come back and hold his hand. Behind us was darkness and ahead of us were seagulls. God told me not to look back because he wasn't. That's powerful. That dream was a while ago, when i lived in Florida. I think about it, and it totally applies to my life right now! I shouldn't look back and worry about all that i have done because god sure isn't. He is always with me no matter what i do. Also, if god isn't judging what i have done then who are you or who am i to judge all that i have done?

:)

sunshine!

what a beautiful weekend, it was spent well! Most of the days were outside and thats the best way to utilize sunshine! i spent every day with my lovely boyfriend. I dont have much on my mind today, im super tired and have to work ALL week. All i have to say is im so lucky to be in the relationship that i am and jake couldnt make me happier. ALSO catherine is my very best friend and she is such a great person when i need to vent. i love them both so much. the end

march 4, 2009

i'm in a not so great mood today, i dont know whats wrong. Everything is upsetting me. Maybe i miss jake, i havent seen him for 2 days i think, thats not that long! geez i just need something to cheer me up! im usually always so happy, and i just dont feel like myself! Until tomorrow...

march 3, 2009

Well today is the first official day i am in a new relationship. It's a bit odd for me, but i will get used to it. I adore Jake so all is well! He is the complete opposite of my last boyfriend which i find to be a huge relief. I'm a bit scared of the future but none-the-less welcome it with open arms. I feel like people who don't understand change cant live life to the fullest. People, sometimes, try and stay in one spot (physically and/or mentally) out of fear, but i love change! The change in my life has helped me grow so much and i appreciate it more and more every day. As cliche as this may sound, life is definitely a book and each new experience should be considered a new chapter. Sometimes the chapter youre reading is great but, who knows, the next may be better than the last!

I'm at work right now, I'm a nanny to a 2 and 6 year old. Precious girls, Amya and Azaria. I just put them to sleep so i get to relax and watch tv. *i get paid to do this, haha!*


Dream time! Last night i had such an odd dream, i was with two relatively close friends and we were all supposed to go to someones house for a party or something and apparently i forgot socks. So i asked them to wait for me and instead they ran off laughing together and i had to find the house on my own. Sometimes i feel like that in real life with these two particular friends, so maybe it's symbolic of something. The socks i dont quite understand but thats alright, haha! My dreams are crazy. For example: Sushi Your Name! ---->explaination! There is this resturaunt called 'Sushi Your Name' but they did not sell sushi. When you got to the window you had to say "sushi mary" (in my case) but whatever your name is you put in after sushi. You had to do this so you could get your food. It was strange!

anyways, until tomorrow!

march 2, 2009

well what a strange day, it snowed first of all. By the time i woke up at 2pm most of the snow on my side had melted, but thats alright im not a fan of icey mess anyways. Well i slept so late that i forgot to eat, so around maybe 5 i went to see jake at work with catherine sanda and my mom. i ate fried mac and cheese, and thats about it. plus the 5 cups of sweet tea...i LOVE sweet tea. after dinner catherine and i waited until jake got off work and then we all went to a movie (slumdog millionaire) but before the movie i got VERY sick. I think im hypoglycemic, i was shaking terribly. It sucked big time.

the movie was so great, i loved how the main character would do anything to be with the girl he loved from the start. It puts many men to shame. Love should be like it is shown in movies, it makes a girl just melt. I have been wanting something like that my whole life and in finally feel like that is happening to me, just a lot less dramatic. haha, i love my life!

anyways, im tired! until tomorrow!

3.1.09 cont...

We should get jerseys cause we make a good team
But yours would look better than mine, cause you're outta my league And I know that it's so cliche to tell you that everyday I spend with you is the new best day of my life
Everyone watching us just turns away with disgust
It's Jealously, they can see that we've got it going on
And I'm racking my brain for a new improved way
To let you know your more to me than what I know how to say
You're OK with the way this is going to be
This is going to be the best thing we've ever seen
If anyone can make me a better person you could
All I gotta say is I must've done something good
I came along one day and you rearranged my life
All I gotta say is I must've done something right
I must've done something right
Maybe I'm just lucky cause it's hard to believe
Believe that somebody like you'd end up with someone like me
And I know that it's so cliche to talk about you this way
But I'll push all my inhibitions aside
It's so very obvious to everyone watching us That we have got something real good going on






youre so special to me jake holland.

march 1, 2009

Sundays are always a chaotic day for me, most of the time i have to wake up earlier than 2pm which is more difficult than it sounds, then i have to proceed to showering and heading to church by 11. After church i do whatever i want but then i have to play taxi to my brother (s). Today was no different. Today was the first day i got to sit down, talk, meet, and eat lunch with Jake's parents, which i enjoyed. Plaza azteca, chicken cheese quesadilla, sweet tea, and Jake..what more could i ask for. [not too much]

I stayed with a friend Saturday night and it's funny, she's about 4 or 5 years younger than me and i hear the way she talks and i understand her thought process immediately. I find it so hard to believe that i once thought that same way, I'm no old women but i do know more than she does about life, boys, school, future, and whatever else takes time and maturity to grasp. The way i view things now compared to when i was a freshman or even sophomore in high school is almost the complete opposite as to the way organize my thoughts now. for example: When a 15 year old boy says something like "we don't have to hang out today." My 15 year old girl friend hears "i understand that you don't have much time for me today," but what i hear is "i don't want to hang out today." I wish i could just tell her exactly what every boy she talks to is thinking so she doesn't get hurt, but at the same time i think that's a good thing for someone to learn. People don't always say what they mean in attempts to avoiding conflict or hurt feelings but sometimes people need to hear what they don't want to hear. The longer something is drawn out the more difficult it is to tell the truth.

anyways, on a funnier note, weird dream from last night. It was a dark night, maybe one or two street lights, I'm walking down the side walk and i suddenly feel a mans presence behind me. I turn quickly and ask him to "go away," he then continues to ask me "girllll, you wanna get together!?" "of course not!" i reply. he doesn't get the hint...he catches up to me but is now in the middle of the road parallel to me. i ask him if he wants to race and he is excited at the thought of competition. We both take off, as he continues to run, i stop and turn around! He was gone forever! the end :)


until tomorrow!